ended up alone
Before that, I was thinking about this weird Mickey Mouse sentai Disney was attempting.. so I had a brief dream about 30 Rock being a team of Power Rangers.. since 30 Rock was on the TV when I woke up. Boring show. :|
I've felt crappy lately. Just don't feel like talking to anyone, even more than usual. And I think I have a shrink appointment tomorrow, so that's handy. *sarcasm* I'm also feeling very uncomfortable at times. I really wish I had another chair to sit in in my living room. I just have the one recliner and it's falling apart more every day, only partially due to the cat using it as a scratching post. I don't really have a working CD player anymore (except the PS3 & PC), so I've been downloading some of the old CDs that still packed up around here somewhere. I listened and thoughts of simpler and much better times came to mind. I'm getting too damn old.. and life just continues to get worse and worse no matter what I do. In just a few short months, I'll be the big 3-0.. and I'll still be coasting along with no reason to live. I'm so lonely.
And I thought the damn pills were actually working for once. I'm just feeling crappier than ever right now. And of course, not in the mood for the usual pick-me-up of media either. And with nothing else to do, that just makes me bored.. and also makes me realize even more what a useless life I live. I really should've been dead by now.. :(
See ya, I guess.